Unemployment. Relationships. Diet and Exercise. Faith. Christianity. Friends. Careers. Depression. Health. Poverty. Worry.
These are just some of the things that I want to explore on this blog. Not all at once, of course. I want to be free to state my opinions, and I want my readers, should there be any, to feel free to state theirs by commenting generously. Everyone knows that I love a good debate!
Today I want to start by commenting on my current state of mind. I am trying so desperately to be positive. I know that my growth in this life has been exponential during stressful and difficult times. Even knowing this, though, it is hard to be positive when one keeps getting up, only to be pushed back down. I never did learn to deal well with stress, so I’m doubtful that any amount of pressure will turn this bit of carbon into a diamond.
I don’t want this blog to end up being a place for me to whine about my troubles, so I won’t go into the details in this post. I will just say that this is NOT the opportune time for my hubby, Kevin, to be missing work for the second day in a row, due to a severe abscess and infection in his front tooth. The dentist says that the root is broken, and the infection must be dealt with before the surgery to remove the tooth happens. I am certain that this is much harder for him to deal with than it is for me. I am trying to keep his spirits up, and to look after him as much as I can.
Where MY worry comes in, (other than concern for his happiness and well being, of course), is that I am responsible for paying the bills. I am currently unemployed, due to a range of circumstances that I’m sure I’ll go into in more details later, and Kevin does not get paid sick days at his job. On top of that, I just spent extra money on groceries to support what is meant to be my new dietary lifestyle, to lower my blood glucose levels, thanks to my new friend, Diabetes. I am NOT loving the new diet so far. When someone (me) is used to managing stress with food, where do they go to manage stress ABOUT and WITHOUT food?
Okay. Now you have a bit of background about my week so far. The point of this post is not to feel sorry for myself. The point is to take an objective look at the situation, and NOT to blow it out of proportion. The point is to be positive – to see my blessings in the midst of it all. The name of the blog is ‘Positive Changes’, and what I’d like to do is to deal with this stress differently than I have dealt with stress in the past. I want to learn from it, and grow because of it. With a knack for playing with my words, I thought now would be the absolutely perfect time to use them to explore my stress, to share my stress and to let some of it go!